Not sure why, but everything is randomly getting stressful. As you can see, I had to cut my hair even shorter... Not really loving this hair at all. I feel and look like a guy. Hate to be negative, but that's all I see in the mirror. And I look identical to my brother. This is awful.
Decided to spend the night at my uncle's to take my mind off of things as much as I can. It helps to be busy so I am doing all I can. Regretting not bringing the Pepto Bismol because I totally have an ulcer from the stress. Probably that, and not sleeping lately. Everytime I fall asleep I wake up immediately thinking of the surgery. It's like anxiety controls my sleep now.
The thought of losing pieces of myself scares me... Especially pieces of my brain. I know they're not exactly working pieces, but even then. And knowing I'll wake up without sight in my right eye is making me want to puke. All I can do is pray right now.
Wish I had more positive words for everyone because I hate showing a frown. But I can't find a smile in me today. Maybe I'll find one tomorrow.